Everything is not okay

Is everything okay?

No.

I grounded myself from facebook after a silly comment triggered a three-hour-long panic attack.

I am in the middle of a divorce, a bankruptcy and babysitting 10 hours a day.

I forget to eat, continue to mysteriously gain weight, can't sleep and let's not talk about the dishes.

TL/DR

No. Not okay.

I created this as a "lark" (which is so funny and light a word it cannot even contain the shadow of what is going down up in here).

I am going to park all the thoughts and communications I would normally share on facebook in this little place.

And every time I will ask, "Is everything okay?" Right now, this very minute, today? Nope. Everything is not okay.